My mistake on presence.

When I was a teenager, in my quest to answer the ultimate question – why am I not happy? I went on a reading rampage.

Fortunately at the time I worked in a second hand book shop and the owner had a preference for new age, self help and spiritual books. So often I would find myself standing behind the counter facing a wall of these sorts of books.

I read many books on affirmations, attracting the life you want and the power of your mind etc. And then a book dropped into my sphere. A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle. It was the first time I had been introduced to the concept of mindfulness and being in the present moment. It changed my life.

But here enters my mistake. I had read so many books about the power of the mind and affirmations, I was completely convinced that it was only okay to have “good” thoughts and “good” emotions. That anything else may lead to cataclysmic events or at the very least demonstrate what an unevolved and unspiritual person I was.

I started practising mindfulness…with a twist. I was completely present, it took a lot of practice at first, constantly guiding my mind back to the present moment. It became second nature to me after a while though.

My mistake however, was a rigid control of the mind. At any point I noticed a negative thought or emotion enter the present, I would talk myself out of it. And in a strange way, I hypnotised myself into this place of what I can only describe as ecstasy. Negative emotions did not exist in the reality I created, they didn’t have a place. I kept this up for a good 3 months. And then it all came crashing down spectacularly.

What I missed was the concept of neutrality. The state I was living in was not real. The state I was living in was a complete disregard to the entire spectrum that makes up my being. To practice true mindfulness, one must accept everything that comes into their space with open arms. It doesn’t mean you must like it or approve of it, but you accept it is there. That is the world of duality we live in, without “good” you cannot have “bad”. It can be likened to the yin and the yang. When you are mindful, you experience the now moment fully, but you do not identify with it. That is the difference and that was the mistake I made.

Happiness is not an end game. You can be completely content in the space of neutrality with “negative” emotions whirling around you. That is the complexity of our being, you can experience numerous conflicting or paradoxical things at once.

Often the new age movement will tell you that happiness and positivity is your goal, that if you are having negative thoughts or emotions then you are doing it “wrong”. The power of the mind is often preached with such fervour, that they often forget the one who sits behind the mind, the observer.

I invite everyone to take a step back, to really take in what is around them in this present moment and to witness it and welcome it in the space of neutrality and see what transforms.

~ Fox Robin

Slow to your cycles

What do you say to humans when everything on Earth is in a whirlwind? What do you say to ease the heart? To ease the mind? How do you convince a soul that they are in essence, alright?

It is amplifying isn’t it dear ones? You know of what I speak, the human collective has become intense. So many different aspects of the One fighting with each other, many opposites not coexisting.

And yet, humanity has asked for this. Humanity has created it. They wish to crack themselves, to know themselves and they feel the only way (on a subconscious level) to come back to themselves is to put enormous pressure upon the ego and the human personalities they are playing.

Fear is so strong in the air, there appears to be a theme of destruction. Not only on a global scale, but on individual levels also. As the wheel of the year turns she demonstrates to us both the great life giving and life taking principles of life on Earth. Mother Earth also demonstrates the need for patience, the need to slow. How many of you are flying through your lives without actually paying attention? Is the fear feeding this?

Do not underestimate the power of small steps. Do not underestimate the power of small acts within your own individual lives. Do not underestimate your own power to create and destroy – and remember that creation and destruction are neither good or bad, they are reliant on each other.

What needs destroying in your life? Where do you need to birth creation? These are good questions to ask as the wheel of the year turns to samhain (southern hemisphere) and beltane (northern hemisphere).

Breathe easy dear ones, do not fight what is. Flow, bend. Your lives will be easier for it.

With great compassion,

I AM Cuchulain

Breathe Out – A Channeling from St. Germain

There is much to say and so many topics to talk of, the human condition is vast and so is the greatness that is your soul. The energies on the planet have become chaotic to say the least. There is fighting, violence, people fighting for their rights and the rights of Mother Earth and the other beings that dwell upon her. In many ways when looking at the Earth from spirit’s perspective, it is as if those humans who are awakening have taken an extended breath and are waiting for a safe time to let it go.

There is a hush. What is about to happen? Most seem to be expecting some kind of catastrophe, either on a global scale or on smaller scales within their countries, cities or personal lives. If I were to pick one emotion to choose right now to sum up the collective on Earth at present, it would be fear.

Now is as good as time as any while you are all in a state of holding your breaths, to tell you that it is okay to breathe out. I find it ironic that I am often telling you all to breathe, although usually it is to take a deep breath in, not out. I want to reassure you all, that you are safe. Even when the human may be going through a crisis of some sort, you at your core are safe. It is okay.

There is no end goal dear ones, just a continuous stream. One event gives way to another which gives way to another. What may appear as being good to the human, may very well lead to a bad circumstance and the other way around. This is why it is important to as often as possible, connect to the I AM. That is you. Even when all may seem chaotic around you, if you can connect to the I Am, then you will find a place of peace. You enter a state of neutrality whereby you just observe.

This creates space. This creates a resting place for your human. Humans are flighty things, always being carried away by fears about survival or getting wrapped up in this or that emotion. That is why knowing how to come back to your still place is so important. Paricularly as humans in their panic seem to be speeding everything up.

Slow down, know that everything will get accomplished whether you are running at warp speed or going along at a snails pace. And even if it does not, it does not matter. The human gets so caught up in outcomes. What about the process? What about the details occurring in the present moment? This is why so many have taken a collective pause, holding their breaths. Fear of the future.

Fear of the future does not serve you. Fear of the future keeps you from being in the NOW. The best anyone can ever do is focus on the NOW. Not what might happen in the next second or the next or in 6 months time or years down the track. What is happening now? Clarity comes to those who act in the NOW. So dear ones, breathe out. And do what needs to be done in every given moment. Do not give your energies away to a potential future that has not happened and may not happen.

You are safe always. The soul is indestructible.

I AM St Germain

What’s going on?

The most common question I get asked by both clients and people I encounter in my day to day life is – “What is going on?”

It has been a common theme for quite some time now, when I get them to explain further I am given a list of experiences ranging from anxiety, depression, feeling out of body or the world not feeling quite “real”, feeling lacklustre, feeling like they are going “crazy”, not feeling comfortable in their skin, not relating to their life and old ways of doing things not quite working any more, or hitting the mark like they used to.

I hear the story over and over again. So what exactly is going on?

We are at a turning point on the planet. No other time on the planet has been like this. We as a collective have asked that we wake up now, that we come back to ourselves – to come to know the I AM.

The easiest way to describe it, is that we are as a collective and on individual levels are shedding our skin. We have been living in a collective illusion for thousands of years now and many of us have been repeating patterns of this illusion for lifetimes. Incarnation after incarnation, we go on repeat. Now the vibration of the planet is rising and it is shaking up those patterns. This is in alignment with our higher selves.

Nothing outside of yourself can make you awaken, that is an individual choice. The human side of yourself however finds fear in this. How can I exist if I do not cling to what I feel makes up “me”?

This is a challenging part of the awakening process and St. Germain often describes it to me as “personality collecting”. The story can go something like this; my career, my clothes, my family, my friends, my past experiences, the entertainment I enjoy (music, books, film etc.), how I decorate my home, the car I drive, are all puzzle pieces that make up who I am.

Now when you buy into this story, that all of these external factors are the sum of who you are, when the energetic wake up call comes knocking at your door, your human self panics and generally as a result clings even tighter to the personality you have created.

Now creation is an important point here. You are the creator. Remember that at all times. If you can create one personality, you can create others. You are vast multidimensional beings and this way of viewing yourself, as a singular personality built on ones surrounding circumstances, is very limiting.

Generally anxiety gives way to lacklustre or a feeling of depression, because as you continue to cling to the external that you feel gives you a sense of being, you find that those external circumstances or activities of objects simply do not give you the same feeling they once did. You might be someone that identifies as being a “book person” someone that loves reading, your personality may very well be built on this. In your state, you might decide that reading will cheer you up, only to find that it does nothing for you.

This is perfect. This is your higher self and the new energies on the planet scratching away at the surface, saying “look deeper”. In these times I often say to people, that this is completely okay and instead of fighting it, to surrender. Accept that you do not know who you are any more, accept that the world and life feels “unreal” and just as a snake accepts the shedding of its skin as a natural process, embrace the changes occurring. Let them happen and gracefully allow the unveiling of who you actually are to occur.

You’re not going crazy, you are remembering who you are.

~ Fox Robin

The Little Things

So often we speak of appreciating the “little things”…but then are they small at all? Are not the “small things” in our life that which surmount to the big things?

On the weekend, I did my usual Sunday ritual of going to the farmers markets followed by a coffee at a nearby cafe. It struck me as I was sipping my coffee and looking at my basket of vegetables, just how lucky I am to have such abundance so readily available to me. I had spent the morning listening to the farmers stories of the floods that have impacted their communities. And once again I was reminded of the fragility of life and the lives we build.

It drove home how easily we take for granted those “little things”. A belly full of food, clothes on our back, a roof over our heads, friendship, love. So often we get caught up in the rat race. That consumer driven culture that says more is more and if you’re miserable or feel empty, just buy more. And hey, while you’re at it, if you’re happy and celebrating, why not go out and celebrate by buying even more. While we are being told to make sure we keep up with the latest trends and fashions. Throw in this constant message that we have to keep achieving bigger and better things, bigger promotions, successes, titles, pay checks.

We have been programmed to not realise the concept of enough. We get so caught up in an illusory end game, that we push aside and take for granted that which really matters. We would not get far in life without food, shelter, love and friendship for very long.

It is okay to slow down. It is okay to take a breath and a step back. Take time to nurture the “little things” and soon you begin to realise they are in fact the big things in life. To appreciate that which sustains our existence here is to appreciate and celebrate being born at all. Soon those insurmountable “big things” begin to shrink – job stress, what so and so thinks of me, I can’t afford the latest *insert shiny here*. Are you fed, clothed, sheltered and loved…do you love yourself? If you are, then you are blessed. Celebrate what you do have and life will fall into place.

~ Fox Robin