Doreen Virtue – We Lost One.

I have been debating whether to write a post regarding Doreen Virtue, as the internet has been saturated with them. However seeing her conversion, her list of what is considered “evil” both unsettled me and fascinated me…what drove her to this conversion and renouncement? Her conversion to Christianity sparked a lot of contemplation for me (I am a renounced Catholic).

Although I couldn’t be considered a follower or a “fan” of her work, the feeling I couldn’t shake after reading her list of “A-Z List of New Age Practices to Avoid, and Why” was this profound sense that we had “lost one”. I do not know if others resonate with this feeling, however for me it was as if the rocky road to consciousness had become too much and a being who was so dedicated to it had thrown in the towel.

This lead me to read her free eBook “The Joy of Jesus” which is available on her website. I needed to know why. Her rationale in the book, was that Jesus appeared to her while she was in church. He didn’t say anything, rather it was an intense experience of being engulfed in his energy.

However there is more to the story which is written in plain text through her book (although it is clear that she does not register it) and it is something that to me, highlights a belief I have observed in the New Age/Self Help community. If anything, I feel that Doreen Virtue is the canary in the gold mine for the New Age movement. I feel it can be summed up in this paragraph from her book:

“I’d get glimpses of happiness: appreciating a sunset, hugging a dear friend, walking my dog, savouring a great meal and so forth. But these experiences were always temporary and fleeting. Where was the lasting happiness? I knew it had to be somewhere!”

And lets face it, that is what the new age/self help movement promises – lasting happiness.

It is a belief that I am constantly challenging and one that St. Germain challenges in our channeling evenings quite often;

A. The end goal of enlightenment equates to eternal happiness.

B. Happiness is something that is outside of you and can only be achieved through external factors.

Life can be challenging shit if we want to be frank about it and it seems to be something that the new age/self help movement likes to dance around, because if life is challenging you, then you’re apparently doing something wrong.

I will admit that the question of – “why am I not happy?” spurred me on the spiritual path in the first place, but there comes a point where you have to let that go. There is a point where you realise that happiness is but one aspect of yourself and of human experience and that if one were to only ever experience happiness they wouldn’t understand what it was. In order to experience an emotion, one needs a reference point. Does happiness exist without sadness? The principles of alchemy would argue that happiness and sadness are the same thing and are but two poles at opposite ends of a sliding scale, with a kind of neutral zone at the center.

“Everything is dual; everything has poles; everything has its pair of opposites; like and unlike are the same; opposites are identical in nature, but different in degree; extremes meet; all truths are but half truths; all paradoxes may be reconciled” – The Kybalion

I am certainly not holding up the Kybalion in the way a Christian might hold up the bible, however I will accept pieces of wisdom where I find them.

An enlightened being has reconciled all their aspects – the good, the bad and the ugly. They no longer identify with these polarities as being who they fundamentally are, nor do they strive to live within the realm of a certain polarity. One who has awakened has stepped out side of this realm completely, with the paradox being, that they can then dive back in and experience ALL aspects of themselves without the baggage that may be attached to certain polarities. In other words, they are free.

Another quote from Doreen Virtue’s book “The Joy of Jesus”;

“Because I felt too frightened to research the topic of fallen angels and demons, I didn’t learn enough about them. The whole topic seemed scary and negative. I always tried to stay positive and avoid anything violent or upsetting. So I ignored the topic of researching fallen angels.”

This speaks volumes to me as someone who is not yet ready to face their “shadow” nature. After the honey moon period of enjoying “love and light”, everyone will then be confronted with their darkness or shadow…however that may look to an individual. Now I know she is referring to demons in this quote and I am not saying to go summoning unconscious spirits here (not really on my recommended list), however the fact that she adamantly tried to stay positive all the time and avoid anything that may be considered “bad” speaks volumes.

This is something the new age/self help movement constantly preaches; affirmation this, bad thoughts will bring bad situations that. What you end up with are a bunch of stressed out people who if they become skilled at it, can delude themselves maybe 90% of the time with their “positive vibes only” thoughts and then panic in that 10% of the time that “bad” creeps in. “Oh no! I had a bad thought about my financial situation. I will doom myself to be poor forever if I keep thinking this! I am wealthy…I am abundant….” and so they settle themselves back into the delusion until the next little scare.

The levee will break eventually. Your being in its entirety needs acknowledgement. If you want to make “good” and “evil/bad” a battle, then ultimately you are creating a battle with yourself. It is time to make peace with ourselves or we will constantly be running for new shelters, as in Doreen Virtue’s case – running from the shelter of the new age movement to Christianity. There will however come a time where that shelter will no longer hold back the tide either.

We are all guilty of it too, so let us not sit back, point fingers and feel smug. It may not be changing religious beliefs, but it can be more mundane things also – I’ll have lasting happiness when I find the perfect job/partner/life situation etc.

Ultimately, enlightenment will strip us of all of these things. It will make us look inward and see the vastness that is our being and our potentials and it will call us to take self responsibility.

Have we lost Doreen Virtue? No. And we must allow her the space to choose her own experiences, just as we have the freedom to do so as well. The game of “I am not enlightened” has many manifestations.

Ultimately if there is anything to take from this, it is to leave ourselves alone and understand that eventually everyone must embrace their shadow.


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There is no formula to spirituality

You are a divine being with ultimate potentials before you and the freedom to choose, St. Germain encourages us not to put us in the prescribed box of what a “spiritual” person does, acts or looks like.


The Year of Grace

Please enjoy our first channeling of the year with St. Germain. 2018 was a year of challenge for many and ended with a crescendo of intense collective energy. Many beings are walking into 2019 cautiously, however St. Germain challenges us to make this the year of grace. What are the intentions behind your goals this year?

Remember, you are the Master.

To be.

Please enjoy a recording of our latest channeling evening with St. Germain. St. Germain reminds us that it is okay to take a step back and to just be, that one’s worthiness is not tied to doing or not doing, or whether or not you feel your have a purpose.

Surrender to Experience

Please enjoy our August recording of our channeling evening with St. Germain.

St. Germain discusses the intense energies we are experiencing on the planet right now. To be free, is to surrender. To be free is to know the stillness of neutrality. Allow yourself the peace of ascension and understand that it will not happen through denying that which your mind would say are “bad” thoughts or experiences. Peace comes from allowing the entirety of your being.

Come back to your heart space, you will not think your way to consciousness.

You Are Enough

Please enjoy a recording of our latest channeling evening with Ascended Master St. Germain. Here he discusses the fundamental issue with the self help movement – the belief that you need fixing, that you as a being are not enough.

The question asked by a person present at the channeling pertains to physical ailments and whether we apply St. Germain’s teaching to physical burdens we seek to fix.


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St. Germain – The Misperceptions of Enlightenment.

Please enjoy this recording of our latest channeling evening, where St. Germain talks of the human misperceptions of enlightenment and how they are holding people back.

Merlin speaks of the old ways

Dear ones, I address you today to give you the courage to keep going. I know that these are tough times on the planet. I know that many of you are struggling under the weight of your own dramas, baggage and emotions – let alone the rest of the planets. I know many of you ache in your bones. You wish to go home. You feel old in many ways – ancient.  Many of you wonder why you came here at all.

I wish to give you this simple answer: because you hold the threads.

How many of you long for the old ways? How many of you wish for a simpler life, one that is in harmony with the cycles of nature and the stars? I know many of you long for the days of magick, even if it has been sold to you that it does not exist. You know it in your bones that it exists.

Many of you have walked this planet for lifetimes, you have lived and breathed a different way of being in the world. I know many say that the old ways are dead and that it is time to accept the new. That the old ways were burned out us a long time ago. This is not so.

The old ways do not die, they morph and grow. Yes it is a new energetic playground on the planet now and yes some of the old ways of magick do not work in the same way, but they are not gone. You came here to facilitate the change, you came here holding the threads of the old ways, to weave them into the new.

Take heart and allow the birth of a new era.

I AM Merlin

Lughnasadh and Consumerism

As we have become divorced from what it is to be directly in touch with our food production, or indeed the production of any of our resources, Lughnasadh can be a tricky holiday to fully relate to. Many will look to the aspect of the waning of the God or male aspect of the year, an honour and reverence for the changing of the seasons. For me in the climate I live in, an excitement settles in. The long relentless humid and hot days will begin to wane and with it comes the anticipation for the relief of cooler days.

However the idea of the harvest weighs heavily on me this year.

The last year has been one of both pulling weeds and sewing seeds (metaphorically) and as I look out over my field, I see that there is still another long year ahead of preparing the soil, weeding and planting. However, a great sense of accomplishment remains when I look at just how far I have come. And just how much I have learned in the space of a year. You could say in many ways, the last few years have been dedicated to my real education – not the one I learned in school or university. And this last year in particular has involved the application of my real education.

My real education has been one of unlearning. Unlearning behaviours that have been taught to us by society to be both acceptable and respectable, things that society was brainwashed by big corporations to aspire to. I have been unlearning consumerism and unraveling all the things that keep us chained to it.

Now what has this to do with the harvest? A lot actually. There was a point 2 years ago where I sat in my living room taking in everything in it. For the first time in my life I could say that truly, I had enough. My 20s had been a whirlwind of study and collecting things for my home and although my furniture is shabby in comparison to the photos in glossy magazines and on television, I had everything I needed. A fully stocked and functional kitchen, all the comforts and furnishings you’d expect in a living/dining area (minus a TV or “entertainment” unit). A wardrobe stuffed to the brim with clothing, a study complete with desk and shelves overflowing with books.

I remember sitting there feeling quite empty. Is this it? I was raised, like many of us are to go to school, get good grades, go on to do further study, find a job, make money and furnish a house (perhaps get married and have children too). You don’t really think too much on it when you are in the midst of excitement of gaining independence as an adult and studying for your future career.

Then you spend a few years on the treadmill, going to your job, making money, paying bills etc. I knew, as I looked around my living area that this was the point where I was meant to upgrade my student furniture. “So this is what life is? Working to upgrade my possessions until I retire?”. It wasn’t adding up.

Something was nagging at me. And it took a little while for it to settle in. A complete disconnection from creation. Who made my furniture? Where does my food come from (besides a vague “made in Australia”)? Who sewed my clothes? And while we are on that path, how is fabric even made? And the biggest question, why do I have none of these skills? Skills that would have been taken for granted only a century ago.

Then it drops in completely. I have been trained to consume, not create. I am completely and utterly reliant on a network of corporations and businesses. What happened to community? How can we actually appreciate the true abundance of the harvest when we have no idea where the harvest came from or what went into creating it?

And so as it goes, one must begin questioning. What have I been taught to “need” and what do I actually need? What can I create or learn to create? How can I support my local community? My future goals include learning permaculture, so then perhaps a Lughnasadh in the future, I can celebrate my own physical harvest. Mother Earth gifts us many things, perhaps this is a good time of year to put aside the incessant wants programmed into us and appreciate what we have.

Empaths, Awareness and Multidimensional Living – St. Germain

My latest channel from St. Germain.

“I AM that I AM St. Germain in service.

It is so easy to forget presence when one is in the hustle and bustle of every day human life. And it is interesting to watch in these times, because not only are you dear ones, trying to navigate your human realm with all of its expectations and obligations, you are now being thrust into an entirely new way of being.

I am going to call this multidimensional living.

What is multidimensional living? Lets say perhaps, you are at your place of work and you are feeling very stressed for no particular reason. If you were to stop, take a breath and come back to the present moment, I think you will find that you are picking up something else. Perhaps another colleague, the general energy of your work environment or perhaps even the collective consciousness on the planet.

Now many call this being an “empath” but you will find in this time and particularly as your consciousness continues to grow, that you indeed will be walking an energetic mine field if you will. As you come to your awareness, you begin to pick up on the subtleties that lower vibrational living has no awareness of.

So now do you not only have your own thoughts and emotions to navigate in your every day human lives, you are now having to deal with everyone else’s thoughts and emotions. The energies of everything around you. This can be particularly exhausting, particularly when one does not quite understand what is going on. Often times a being will blame themselves and then do whatever they can to ameliorate it.

This may look like, more self help books, workshops, therapy or supplements and drugs to calm the emotions. When truly dear ones, this is unnecessary for most of you. And this is where the power of the present moment comes into play.

From now on, this is my challenge to you, when you are feeling overwhelmed by life or sensitive or feeling heightened emotions, stop. Take a breath. And ask yourself this question – is this mine? This is a powerful question to ask, because you will find that if it isn’t, it will lift. You will be surprised by the answers if you practice this regularly.

You are aware beings walking in a world in which there is no sense of energetic “etiquette”. There is still a lot of both energetic dumping and taking. Awareness is the key to stop doing that yourself and awareness is the key to not taking on others energy or giving yours away. There is a big difference between feeling energy and taking it on board and now is the time to start practicing this awareness.

In good faith,

I AM St. Germain”

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